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Thing have been....good? [31 Aug 2005|08:58am]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | The White Stripes - My Doorbell ]

Happy Birthday Calvert!!!! War Zone...bring it!



I noticed something neat just now, going through my music folder. I constantly download so much fucking music; sometimes I'll hit a good run of songs that stick with me. This better than average music reminds me of the better than average stuff that's been happening to me. The radio's been kind to me. I have a soundtrack for these past few weeks that'll undoubtedly remind me of this summer. I really dun want it to end. Even though I missed Otakon, and potential interests fizzled out. All these things that I've done has really given me reason to enjoy this moment as it passes. For that I have a lot to owe to the people I've seen and gravitated towards.

In no order or semblance at all...

Tasha's week long party, seeing Amanda, Candyfliping, beer pong talents, 16 fucking bit Sega, and those funny ass kids playing Dead or Alive.

Cliff Jumping, hiking, and beach hopping with Jessica. She's been the main reason I've been off the computer out of the apartment and in the sun. I can relate a lot of songs with the times we spend together. Paige like the awesome friend she is, even let her come to her Bday party.

Ruckus constantly keeping me blunted and unknowingly teaching me the 'gift of gab' blueprint.

Mc Paul's new best friend Jaxx

Zack, Shawn, and James [as] quote-off-a-con @ the diner after beating the shit out of the new wrestling students.




The best part about it all is how much I have to look forward too also.

Things in my pro wrestling life certainly look better by the day. I have mad shows to make. EWA hired me back and have a show the 24th. MBA this Saturday, Chri$ Ca$h's memorial show, and CZW in Philly. Check my My Space account's calendar manager. I have more info there, and even more shows!

Im marking the fuck out over September. Fuck a Green Day song.

Mortal Kombat Shaolin Monks
Transporter 2
SmackDown! vs. Raw 2006
Burnout REVENGE

What sucks though is I'm not pumped bout the new Lunar game at all! WTF is wrong with me?!

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a break from the whiney sheet [06 Jun 2005|01:21am]
[ mood | hot ]
[ music | [as] ]

01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal or celebrity you remind me of. (My change, as my knowledge of accurate animal kingdom similies is very very low.)
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

3 choices| the problem

The things you own, end up owning you. [26 May 2005|06:06pm]
[ mood | restless ]
[ music | System of a Down - Radio/Video ]

Eveyone's left for better things. Everything I've worked for means nothing to the people that matter. There's always gonna be something better out there. I'm gonna havta accept the fact that I'm and everything I have is 2nd rate. Fuck social standings and material indulgence.

If you feel somewhat scorned by this then stop thinking so hard.

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OGB gets it like it IS! [27 Apr 2005|10:35pm]
[ mood | sore ]
[ music | XTC radio ]

I'm a sheep! baa baa. G'damn though i love these things.
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

OGB's 5 questions. Now with 25% less carbs. )

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[22 Apr 2005|03:48pm]
This journal is gonna be deleted right quick. i need to promote more. thx
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[20 Apr 2005|08:35pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]
[ music | HYPNOTIC CRISIS ]

I had a good long meaty post about something very important right now. instead I want to sum it all up in one sentance.

You all were right.

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A Post From [info]species [06 Apr 2005|10:08pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | Slowdive* Machine Gun ]

Flowers Masterbate When You Aren't Looking :D

THE END. love tascha.

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I'd rather chill @ the house but err thang else makes sence. [06 Apr 2005|08:15am]
[ music | Busta Rhymes - Gimme Some More ]

Your dating personality profile:

Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Outgoing - You can liven up any party. You've got a way with people and have little difficulty charming your dates.
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Your date match profile:

Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If her jokes make you laugh, she has won your heart.
Your Top Ten Traits

1. Liberal
2. Outgoing
3. Adventurous
4. Sensual
5. Practical
6. Athletic
7. Wealthy/Ambitious
8. Big-Hearted
9. Intellectual
10. Stylish
Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Practical
2. Adventurous
3. Funny
4. Outgoing
5. Athletic
6. Intellectual
7. Sensual
8. Big-Hearted
9. Conservative
10. Wealthy/Ambitious

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

the problem

[06 Apr 2005|07:54am]
[ mood | intimidated ]
[ music | Fabolous - Breathe ]

2005-03-26
CZW World Heavyweight title match
Steven Desire v. Ruckus (c)
@ Bowleys Quarters Fire Hall





More to see here.

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you must want to have this! [03 Apr 2005|11:53am]
[ music | Kraftwerk - Autobahn ]

So would anyone like to take up residence in a wonderfuly underamazingly Dundalk apartment in DUNDALK?! McCreel's gonna be moving on up the social ladder and shacking with his gurl Nadia but only if I can find me another roomate. Anyone even remotely interested in drug orgys and Teen Titans need to apply.

In other news....film at 11.

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[28 Mar 2005|06:28pm]
[ music | RAVERS CHOICE - VOL.4 ]

So after taking everyone's advise and choosing to ignore this girl who was trying to change me in exchange for a relationship. I started getting random IM's from at least 3 different screen names. Stupid girl had the same font, color and online time on each name. This went on for the rest of the week untill I finally responded to one of her made up names, calling her out. Now the bitch is cut off. I'm glad I listened to ya'll.

the most exciting thing I've got going on )

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[24 Mar 2005|07:25pm]
Im so weak. I need my cat ears!

Just goes to show how easily trained I am. Met some girl online. Got to talking to her. She's interested, but only in changing who i really am. Should I sacrifice my current trends in life for someone I've just met in the off chance that maybe she'll do me some good? I'm not sure I really want this, but then again she's showing more interest in this popping off than me, which is rare.

.edit

I'm gonna take [info]species advise. fuck her. if she comes off any little bit like she dose on instant messanger than I'm sure to rock her face with my extended limbs out in public.

bending the light to show your favorite color )
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[21 Mar 2005|06:15pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Johan Gielen the beauty of silence ]

I know you all are insanly jealous of the fact [info]species is hanging out @ Manhattan all the time now. She even fed us! mmm Sun Chips.

the problem

things can only get better after all is lost [09 Mar 2005|02:58am]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | The Chemical Brothers - Surface To Air ]

Adult Swim sunday is dead. No one comes over anymore. Things are very different than Matt's basement. I've been spending more of my time over Claude's house. Seeing my sister more than I ever did at mom's house. All of our childhood homes are gone. With mom going to CT, I can't depend on her like a safety net..not that I can ever go to her for my problems anymore. Mom's changed too. I'm so scared she's doing what Joe dose. It never past my mind, it had to of been the last thing I've ever wanted to know. I've been told by a many people that I tend to display qualities of dissociation. I can see what they mean. Ever since I was little I wanted the world I see to be more like tee vee. I used to revolve a lot around what I saw on tee vee, now I don't even give shows I used to shedual entire days around any second thought. I missed the new Sealab and Robot Chicken last Sunday cause I opted to get more sleep instead. Tee Vee isn't important anymore since I don't get to see it with people I'd used to. Having all this time to myself isn't as fun as I thought it would. It's too easy to get bored. When I get bored I usualy eat. And there's nothing ever to eat here. Didn't ever think I'd be drinking more water than I used to at mom's house. mmm Dundalk water. If my car hadn't died on me I would prolly be out right now. I used to be too busy for LJ, I'd have two or three pages worth of stuff to read on my friends page. Now i'm so bored I'm posting in it.

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the most fun that's happened all day [04 Mar 2005|05:26pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Juno Reactor - Feel The Universe (Koxbox Remix) ]

luvbun21 : hey
ComplexDeChocobo : hola
luvbun21 : hi
luvbun21 : HOLA??
luvbun21 : wuts that???
luvbun21 : i dont speak chinese!!
luvbun21 : fried onion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ComplexDeChocobo : so who's this
luvbun21 : who do u think this is??
ComplexDeChocobo : well gimme a jint
ComplexDeChocobo : hint
luvbun21 : dumbo
luvbun21 : i go to ur school!!!
luvbun21 : helllo
ComplexDeChocobo : still lost
luvbun21 : im a girl w/ blond hair and i am a lesbiane
luvbun21 : ring a bell?Cassy?
ComplexDeChocobo : ha your crazy
ComplexDeChocobo : so wud up
ComplexDeChocobo : your blonde now
luvbun21 : how bout u come over to my house and well make out
luvbun21 : ive always been a blond
luvbun21 : hello im goin to send u a pic of me
luvbun21 : its not anythin bad though
luvbun21 : so dont worry
ComplexDeChocobo : mmhm
luvbun21 : ok
luvbun21 : hello u wanna see the pic or not
luvbun21 : helllllllllllooooooooooooooooooooo
luvbun21 : .................
luvbun21 : ................
luvbun21 : .................
luvbun21 : .........
luvbun21 : .
luvbun21 : .
luvbun21 : .
luvbun21 : .?
ComplexDeChocobo : prolly not, your nutter butter
luvbun21 : huh
luvbun21 : ure weird
luvbun21 : common
luvbun21 : please!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????
ComplexDeChocobo : and you went to kenwood?
luvbun21 : yea duh
ComplexDeChocobo : that's funny i went to overlea
luvbun21 : lol how funny not
luvbun21 : wanna see me ii am famous
luvbun21 : im emmy rossum
ComplexDeChocobo : yea before you were cassy
luvbun21 : i was in the day after tomorrow and the phantom of the opera
luvbun21 : no u were cassy
luvbun21 : u hav a great profile
luvbun21 : sense any sarcassum
luvbun21 : hhint hint
luvbun21 : i wuz kiddin u hav a sucky profile
ComplexDeChocobo : awesome thanks
luvbun21 : i wuz bein sarcastic stupid
ComplexDeChocobo : awesome thanks
luvbun21 : ure dumb im goin to block u
ComplexDeChocobo : awesome thanks

the problem

i forgot who i stole this from [03 Mar 2005|12:48am]
(X) Smoked Pot
(X) Dropped E
(X) Smoked Hash
(X ) Done Shrooms
(X ) Downed a Bottle of Robitussin
( ) Smoked Opium
( ) Done PCP
( ) Eaten Peyote
( ) Smoked Salvia
( ) Snorted Cocaine
( ) Done Crystal Meth
( ) Drank Absinthe
(X) Dropped LSD
( ) Swallowed DMT
(X) Huffed Nitrous
( ) Snorted a Shit Load of Nutmeg
( ) Done Heroin
( ) Drank GHB
(X) Kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) Kissed a member of the same sex
( ) Crashed a friends' car
( ) Been to Japan
(X) Ridden in a Taxi
( ) Had Anal Sex
(X) Been in Love
(X) Had Sex
( ) Had Sex in Public
(X) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
(X) Been Fired
(X) Been in a Fist Fight
( ) Had a Threesome
(X) Snuck out of my Parents' House
( ) Been Tied Up
( ) Been caught Masturbating
( ) Caught someone else Masturbating
( ) Pissed on Myself
( ) Had Sex with a member of the Same Sex
( ) Been Arrested
(X) Made out with a Stranger
(X) Stole something from my Job/School
( ) Celebrated New Years in Times Square
(X) Gone a Blind Date
(X) Lied to a Friend
(X) Lied to a BEST FRIEND
( ) Had a Crush on a Teacher
( ) Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
( ) Been to Europe
(X) Skipped School
( ) Slept with a Co-Worker
( ) Cut Myself on Purpose
( ) Had Sex at the Office
( ) Been Married
( ) Gotten Divorced
( ) Had Children
( ) Slapped someone I love
( ) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been on a Plane
( ) Had sex on a plane
( ) Had sex with more than one person in a week
( ) ...in a day (within 24 hours, you mean?)
( ) Posed Nude
( ) Gotten someone drunk just to have sex
( ) Cheated on a significant other
( ) Had sex with my boss
( ) Dated or had sex with a roommate
( ) Hitchhiked
( ) Danced Naked
( ) Eaten red meat, chicken, fish
( ) Had a Tattoo
( ) Booty called someone
( ) Stuck something up my ass for pleasure
( ) Swallowed Semen
( ) Had a Golden Shower
( ) Been in a Orgy
( ) Had phone sex
( ) Had Cyber sex
( ) Danced on a table
( ) Broken a bone
(X) Skinny Dipped
(X) Saved Someone's life
( ) Tried to committ Suicide
(X) Been Pulled over by a cop
( ) Knew the cop and got your friends out of trouble
( ) Ditched the cops
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[28 Feb 2005|11:52am]
[ music | Jay-Z - Dirt Off Your Shoulder ]

EWA's first event of 2005
Come see me challenge 3 top CZW stars for the EWA Cruiserweight title in a 4 man free for all.

Saturday March 26, 2005
The Bowleys Quarters Fire Department
900 Bowleys Quarters Road
Baltimore, Maryland 21220
6:30 pm Bell time


I need to sell 5 tickets to this show in order to be on it. Anyone even remotely interested in wrestling should come check this show out.

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[25 Feb 2005|06:12pm]
Everyone keep Donner in your thoughts. Everyone's worried bout em
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[24 Feb 2005|02:49am]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out ]

YEA REGGIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!1one!1

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die die kill me [22 Feb 2005|03:14pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | Underworld - Born Slippy (Paul Van Dyk Remix) ]

The sickness has kept me up since before work on Saturday. I haven't slept for 4 days. This fever has given me the most intense hullucanations. I could of sworn that Matt came home early from work, telling me he was fired. I can't hold any food in. Medication hasn;t helped anything, I almost overdosed two nights ago on Nite Quill and Tylenol PM, i ended up spending the majority of my time shaking and sweating from the cold and heat at the same time. Putting together full strings of thought is difficult. I can't stay focused on anything for more than a minute. This is the 4th time I;ve tried to put something of context on lj, only to delete everything and start over again. i don;t care if any of this makes sence anymore. Everyone's been real worried bout me, Donner's been especialy nice. Laying down has been come the only thing i want to do and at the same time the worst thing i could do, This cough is killing my throat and my head is pounding harder with every passing minute. I called out of work last night but i can't afford to do it again tonight. I really do feel as if I'm being punished for something. On top of all that, my car is broken down and stranded at Bre's house. Positive thinking isn't gonna work anymore. Jessi and me have plans tomarrow night. I dunno if I'm gonna be healthy enough for it. Ever since 2 weeks ago everything's gone to shit. I'm not blaming you but dammit it would be so easy to.

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